It’s Necessary

It's okay to have days like these
It's okay to succumb to the pain
Feeling the vastness of the darkness
Embracing what may feel like madness.

It's okay to feel so human,
To discard emotional baggage
To let wounds heal
And to see what can be salvaged.

With a tired soul,
Tears run freely,
My heart heavy as my knees hit the ground
I allow myself to be
To completely break down.

It's okay to let pain flow
It's okay to send everything to hell,
To collapse, 
To let go of control.

I feel my soul aching for release
The shadow demanding to be let out
It's rage and sadness caged for too long
I need to let it express itself
It's not only human to do so
It's necessary.

As I walk through this fire
I feel its flames engulfing me
As I try to find my way out
Knowing the only chance I got
Is to close my eyes and let it guide me.

I let it take over my senses
It's okay to feel this much pain
This confusion,
This rage,
Breaking down the mental fences
From time to time,
It's necessary.

I lock myself in my room 
I turn on the music
Playing the same fucking song
I then lay on my bed 
As my body shivers 
I cry like an abandoned child
Searching for home
Unable to find her way.

I cry until my bones hurt 
I cry until I rage
I cry until there are no more tears
I cry until there is nothing left to give.

Defeated,
With my spirit on the ground
And my hopes feeling like nothing but shit
I feel light as a feather
Fragile like a wounded bird.
 
I wrap my arms around me
And drift off to the abyss
Sweet sleep overtakes me
And I am off to bliss. 

It's ok to sometimes reset
It's okay to rise from the rubble
Dusting off and pushing forward
Refreshed, 
Renewed, 
Stronger, 
Wiser, 
More complete,
As another piece integrates itself.

It's okay to feel the ups and downs
The shadow and the light
It's okay to be human, 
To feel human, 
In order to transcend!