Beyond the Horizon

Sitting here with nothing but the horizon in front of me 
I can feel the soft caress of the water as its lingering waves gently touch my toes
The sand, warm and soft as your embrace once was

Where are you now?
Can you hear the loud calling of my heartbeat?
Come and save me from the storm within 
Save me from this nostalgia that is fucking up my life

Call me and break the silence with the sound of your voice
Search for me, follow the maddening sounds which haunt your soul
Find and kiss me the way the moon kisses the waves at night
Without permission and without limitations

Come back, sweeten my being with the essence of your aroma
Bring to life the death butterflies and awaken those which are asleep
Return my faith, make me believe in the possibility of the impossible
Save me from this cold lonely feeling which haunts me every night.

I soothe my loneliness with the hope of seeing your eyes once more
I picture your hand gently stroking my cheek 
Searching deep within my brown eyes
Do you still remember me?
Can you still hear my song?
To you I was not broken
I was yours 
I was whole

Do our memories haunt the threshold of your mind?
Are you so far away that you cannot hear my cries?
Are there signs of regret when contemplating the last time you held me in your arms?

Do your thoughts run towards me asking about your sad walk without my company?
Do you know how to answer their relentless questioning?
Do you toss and turn hoping to either fall sleep or wake up?
Do you even know where you are?
Are you afraid?
Are you at peace?
Are you all right?

Do you wish for me to come rushing in like a cool breeze on a spring day?
Do you miss the warmth of my body and the sound of my voice?
Do you miss me as I miss the peace I felt within your arms?

I know the answer to all these questions whenever I close my eyes
I remember clearly the pained look on your face
The clenched fists as I walked away
Your haunted cries as my taxi disappeared

Now I sit here wondering how to reach you where you are
Come and save me from the painful knots I carry in my soul
Show me how these knots can be untied so the storm can end
I can  feel its power as its waters overflow my eyes

Tears caress my cheeks but cannot take away the pain
For without you my soul feels cold
You and your raw unconditional love

Without you all I have left is an empty gaze
For I cannot contemplate the moon as I did before
The magick feels gone and with it my hope

Will you hear my cries and rush back to me
Can we turn back time and pretend I did not leave?
I am haunted without you
I have tried to live and failed
For the memory of your love haunts me each and every day
Your raw honest way of saying things
Your loving spirit 
Are things I can't forget

I cannot bring you back to life, so maybe we will meet soon in death
As I take my last breath, we will once more embrace
And within that embrace, we will forever disappear.

-Sofia E. Falcone-