I am here

This poem is dedicated to every mother (and father) who has known the tragic loss of their child.  No words can ever console the pain ones goes through, only time will do what it does best.  Please, if it is any consolation at all, remember that life is all energy, and this cannot die, it can only be transformed. 

(Rough Copy)
Today I feel like traveler lost in the desert
Desperately searching for holy water to satiate this pain
My soul desperately aches
It's hard for me not to have you near

My arms ache to hold you 
My mouth wishes to sing you the old lullaby
My mind knows the sad truth
Yet my heart refuses to accept this cruel reality
You are gone, what horrible brutality

I have tried to mend this broken heart
Day and night I cried out to the Gods
Pleading to understand why
Hoping for them to change life's laws
For destiny to change what it foresaw

It's been a while since I stood here
Just reading your name is hard for me to bear
Your father misses you as well
Only I, am the coward who can't let go
I am alive yet feel like a corpse

Sometimes my hands gently caress my womb
Remembering the happy day in which we got the news
I was to bring new life to this world 
Yet your life was cut short from the shores of my love

My body trembles 
My mind rebels at my thoughts
Suddenly birds are chipping 
And the winds caress not just my body but my soul

I close my eyes and call out for you
I can feel your love
I wonder if this is madness
Will there be no end to this sadness?

Suddenly my heart hears a whisper
Without knowing, I recognize such sweet voice
My heart rejoices and tears freely start to flow

"It's been a long time, but it feels like yesterday
You can't see me, but I am here
I heard your cries and seen your cross
Please let it go, it is too heavy
I cannot bear to see you so broken and lost
Beyond this veil that separates us
Beyond this illusion which reaps at your heart
Know that I am here, I won't let go
I am not in pain but submerged in the shores of unbound love
I see your eyes, there is light beyond the pain
Cry if you must, but know there is a sacred rainbow 
On the other side of it, I shall wait
Know that I feel your love each and every day
My sweet mother, don't let go of hope and strength
My spirit is with you, until the day we meet again"

Sofia E. Falcone